Is This a Blessing or a Curse?

Hello KooKooBabes!

Ok, so this is something that has recently come to my attention and I need to talk about it ASAP! I said in my first post how some of these aren't going to be for the fait-hearted and this is one of those posts. If you don't like the discussion of sexual activity please close this now and wait until my next post which will be a little more reserved.
This past week I have been ask by not one or two but four males if I would partake in oral sex with them. Plain and simple; I've been asked to get on my knees and blow four different times by four different guys! Two of them are repeat offenders, they were males that I had "fun" with in my first semester here in college one is a guy I've been having cuddle sessions with on occasion and the other is a guy who I haven't done anything with ever. Two of them asked me in the same exact night! I started to think and I wondered "Is God blessing me?" male attention is something I don't get that often so when it happens I'm not only happy but I'm shocked. Except, I thought more about this and then started to wonder "Or is God telling me this is what people think about me?" Do men think I am easy, do they think I'm willing to get on my knees just because they ask for it? Maybe it's like Mae West said in "She done him wrong" which was "When Women go wrong men go right after them". Maybe my past actions have made me more appealing to the male population?! How does that even work?!

If you are wondering I said no to all of them! This has thoroughly confused me, I've barley spoken to these guys like ever and now their all asking for a blow job in the course of three days?! I'm not sure if this is Gods way of saying that things are looking better and that some guys still want me, or if he's trying to tell me to slow my roll because the title I'm getting isn't a good one. All and all I'm confused and remaining on my feet and not my knees for a little while.

XXX ILY times a Million! NikkieSharpie XXX

He Has Risen and so has my Caffeine Intake!

Hello KooKooBabes!

Welcome to my new blog! I've decided to start blogging because sometimes it is easier to type it out then pull out the cannon and start to film. This is also going to be place where I post things I wouldn't necessarily feel comfortable posting to YouTube. Some posts might not be for the faint hearted so I'm warning you now! Todays blog isn't going to be as intense but it is all about todays holiday of Easter and how the Lord is great and risen! 

*I will star off by saying that I did just get back into my faith as a Roman Catholic but still old habits die hard.*

Easter is the celebration and remembrance of Christ and how he was crucified on the cross and then he had risen and been resurrected. The lord sacrificed himself for us and our sins and I think that is amazing and incredibly humbling. In typical Roman Catholic faith on Ash Wednesday we sacrifice something for him the way he sacrificed for us. We give this specific thing-or things-up for 40days and 40nights. Usually it's red meat or sweets or anything indulgent, I decided to partake in Ash Wednesday for the first time in a while and I kicked it off with a bang; I gave up Starbucks. If anyone reading this knows me-which I think a lot of you do-I am a Starbucks addict! I love the stuff, it is my own personal crack and I am in a serious relationship with it. He sacrificed for me and my sins so I decided I could take a break from my caffeinated relationship for a little over a month and sacrifice for him. It hasn't been easy, and yes they do give cheat days and I did take three of those sundays to have a Venti Passion Fruit Lemonade Iced Tea but whenever during the week I didn't think I could handle the day without Starbucks I remembered how The Lord can't have these things, he can't do these things, because he gave it up for me. The least I could do is take a little over a month to feel the way he did. It is a humbling holiday and time. To think one man giving himself up for myself is just awesome and I am grateful that he has done this for me! I thank him everyday and everyday he is in my heart keeping me going, and after today he is in my starbucks as a reminder of what he gave me! 

As I sit here sipping on my first Grande Iced White Mocha with whip in far to long I think back at all the things not only God, but others(Like my parents or friends or loved ones)have given up for me and I am brought to tears because that is a whole slew of people willing to put me first. I have done the same for others and will continue to do so until my last day but it is still amazing how there is still good in the world. People are still good and things are still up and on the bright side and there is a little bit of God and Good in everyone. Final thoughts on Easter; God is Good and so is Starbucks!

XXX ILY times a million! NikkieSharpie XXX