Wednesday, July 29, 2015

Rainy Day OOTD

Hello KooKooBabes!
Rain Rain Don't Go Away

   Today I am sharing with you a OOTD. I know how typical girl on youtube of me, stop hating we all know you love it! Recently Florida has been more moody then me on my period and has rained almost everyday for at least three hours. I am obsessed with storms, they are my life and I love them. This past Sunday Florida actually had a full blown all day storm and I was so happy! I put on my most comfortable outfit and stayed in bed all day, and I mean ALL DAY. Below is what I am wear and where you can get it!

My glasses are from my optometrist
So like awkward if you want them 
Phone Case is from Amazon
http://www.amazon.com/Symbolcase-Plastic-Case-Cover-Catcher/dp/B00N5F3X5Q/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1438095792&sr=8-1&keywords=dream+catcher+iphone+5s+case
Camisole is from H&M
http://www.hm.com/us/product/92806?article=92806-J
Pants are from Nike
http://store.nike.com/us/en_us/pd/tech-fleece-pants/pid-10296722/pgid-10967906


   Perfect for just lounging about all day, everything about this outfit-espcially the pants-is warm and cozy. This outfit with some pizza, wine, and Netflix is the perfect excuse to enjoy the rain!

ILY TIMES A MILLION

XXX Sharpie XXX

Thursday, June 25, 2015

Moments Made for Movies 2

For the sake of lawsuits we're going to call the male in this story Pro. At the time I thought he would actually go pro. Pro was all I thought I wanted in a guy; on the surface at least. Turns out he was top of the line scum. This is also the guy who my blog post 'He Broke It' is dedicated too. I thought he would be the one, I thought I meant something to him, I thought we would end up happy together. 

...Thoughts can be deceiving...

I spent freshman and a large part of sophomore year infatuated with Pro. All my friends knew and all of them advised me against it but still I continued to fall in deep with him. Finally, I had to start a recovery so, I deleted Pro. For real this time; all social medias AND even his phone number. It was a glorious two months, then at 1AM I got a text from a number I didn't know but recognized all to easily. 
"DTF?" My heart sank and my breath lost, it was him. 
We went back and forth for about forty minutes of me trying my hardest to stay strong, I told him I wouldn't have sex with him and I just wanted to talk all this shit out. He agreed. I grabbed my keys. 

I wore clothes I knew were far from sexy. Deep down I think I did want to sleep with him but closer to the surface I hoped he'd actually have the balls to talk to me and tell me why he was the way he was. Fuck, I was so wrong. In typical Pro fashion he informed me that the door was open and to let myself in because he was already waiting for me two floors up in bed. I drove over, body shaking. Part from nerves part from anger and part from excitement. I was seeing him again. The guy who made me feel so comfortable and so self conscious all at once. He was my own personal form of oxy. I made a motion to write how long I had been sober on my hand, just as a reminder. 

I'm not going to go into our whole two hour fight. Not going to get into how he finally admitted he had a girlfriend of three years, or how it made me want to vomit. Or how he'd slept with a lot of girls at our school but I was the only one he kept going back to(Why? Well I asked and he 'didn't know') or how he wanted me,but not want to be with me. That's all tedious and faint eye watering memories. Instead I'm skipping to the actual moment that made me feel like I was in a stupid teen romance movie.

"Can I have a hug please"
"Why the fuck would I hug you?!" 
"I don't know!”
"See this is what I'm talking about, Pro!"
"Ok, because it helps. I promise you it'll make you feel better. Come on, hug me" 
I refused. 
"Ok I'm gonna leave my hands here and I hope you just reach out and hug me" 
"Why would I do that?!" 
"Just do it! Look I'm counting to five and you better hug me by five. One...two...three...four..."
I wrapped my arms around him. 
Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Oh, but it was so nice! 
He hugged me, at first cautious but then tight and I felt better, damnit he was right! We both let go and sarcastically I said "yep uhhuh totally better" he laughed and then once again, in typical Pro fashion he attempted to jump on top of me and pin me down. I didn't let it happen, part because I knew it was wrong and part because I almost fell off his bed. How unsexy! Like here we go I’m about to take advantage of you but oh shit almost tossed you from my bed whops! So instead I yelped “What the fuck was that?! Are you trying to throw me off your bed?!" He tried making into sexual banter but I shut it down by comparing his attempt to a serial killers. 

Things got awkward. His hard on was getting aggravating for both of us and finally he let his anger show and told me to fuck him or get out. I got up to leave and he followed me out telling me he was giving 'fifteen second to come back upstairs and get in bed or leave'...I was already leaving? I never said he was the brightest. I told him I just wanted to talk and he didn't want to do any of that. We fought about what we both wanted in that moment right up until I slammed his front door and got in my car. I sobbed the whole way home.

Part of me hoped that he had followed me back to campus or that when I got to my door he was waiting, he wasn't. I shouldn't have expected that at all. It was him. He wouldn't ever do that to me I didn't matter like that. I didn't sleep that night and I knew he was probably sleeping like a damn baby. I didn’t sleep at all. Instead I stayed up fucked around on social media and texted my best friend some weird cryptic shit. As I lay awake still hyped on adrenaline or some shit I somehow thought texting him would be good smart ass idea. He couldn’t even tell me my damn major, so I decided to tell him? Why the fuck did I think it was a good idea? He doesn’t care! He’s gonna wake up read that and laugh at me. Fuck. I’ve fallen back to the trap that is him. I had gone Pro. 

Thursday, November 6, 2014

I am a problem

Hello KooKooBabes!

   I am a difficult person; plain and simple I will admit that I am difficult. I may be a little high maintenance, not as high as most 'basic bitches' but I have my ways and I am set in them. This leads me into what I wanted to write about, I hate living on campus. I hate it so much and for the past month I have been trying to find an apartment off campus. It's been hard and not so easy and every time my parents ask me why I can never really answer. Until now that is, where I have made a blog post on why I hate living on campus.
   One of the reasons is because I don't like other people, well thats not true. I like other people but I like them to a certain point, hence I can't live with people in one room with three beds. The roommates I have this semester are/were friends but that is only that. One of them I don't see very much so thats fine, but the other one is always here; she is rude, selfish, not respectful and I can't stand it. I can't live with two people who I don't want to live with in a room with three beds all year long. If I had a room to myself I would perfectly fine with it, all three of us in three different rooms kept completely to ourselves.
    I also need a kitchen, it's the Italian woman in me. I hate the cafeteria in my school, it makes almost everyone I know sick, very sick. I want to be able to make my own food, have a stove and fridge and dishwasher oh and dishes! I want dishes and cups and silverware actual silverware! I want to be able to have my sisters over and have a home cooked meal I am sick of my schools same food in the caf. I don't have a kitchen in my room, I have a sink and I had to bring a microwave and a fridge...thats it! No stove or dishwasher or prep area literally just a room with a bathroom and three beds. 
    This leads me into my final point; I can't live in a box. I don't want to live in a room with three beds, a sink and a connected room for a toilet and a shower. It bothers me so much that theres no separation, there is no break up of living. It is not something I want to do anymore. Hopefully I will get what I want/need and get a place with a bedroom, bathroom, living room, dining room and kitchen. Oh, and all in five seperate rooms.

XXX ILY times a Million, Nikkie Sharpie! XXX

Wednesday, September 3, 2014

It can still be bad if...

Hello KooKooBabes!

   This is one of those posts where reader discretion is advised because it's a post all about sex! Oh, but not just any sex today, kookoobabes we are gonna talk specifically about bad sex. Yes, every one of you will experience bad sex at least once in your lifetime, but how exactly will you know if it is really bad or not? There are many factors that make sex a bad time that are easy to spot but there a few factors that can seem good but it doesn't make it good sex. Listed below are three ideas behind the theme 'it can still be bad if...' enjoy my personal sex life stories and please, feel free to laugh!

1. They're the person of your dreams.
   Is he the first string quarterback with big muscles and dreamy eyes? Is she the head cheerleader with a perfect body and super nice barbie car? Are they all you think about and beg to who ever you believe in that they give you a shot with them? Well, that person may be the person of your dreams but they could also suck in bed. It's ok, don't go and throw away all your sappy teen romance novels and don't you dare stop watching those old school rom-coms! I'm just saying you could sore a date with the dream guy or girl and end it with a romp in the sheets and they would be terrible. More then once I've wanted to be with a guy because I thought he was all that and a bag of Kit-Kats and once we had that 'magic moment' I was left pretty unsatisfied. I'm also one of those people who deep down knows it sucks but will say it was the best because I built that person up in my head to be amazing. I know you do it too, it's ok to do it but just remember; sometimes the person of your dreams is just meant for your dreams.

2. They're 'Blessed'.
   Now by me saying blessed I don't mean the holy ghost came to them and they're now a God among us. No no no that would be silly, especially since they wouldn't be having pre-marital sex. When I say blessed I'm talking about size-this can be also mean tightness when it comes to girls-God has blessed your fuck-buddy with a large penis. Here's the question though; did God bless him with the ability to know how to use it? If you're questioning it, the answering is probably always going to be 'no'. A guy can have an anaconda but you don't want none unless he knows how to tame it. It may be the biggest thing you've ever seen and also the most painful thing you ever felt at the same time. Once again, this is ok! It can be big and bad, not everyone with a big penis is automatically great in bed. Sometimes it's not about the size of the boat but the motion in the ocean. 

3. You Finished.
   Finishing during bad sex isn't common but it is possible. Usually it's called bad sex because you didn't finish or couldn't but sometimes you do finish but it's not s great as you wanted it be. The other night, for example, I was with a guy and it was just down right terrible sex(reason why I wrote this post)but I was still able to come. I mean, I had to do all the work but I got there and it wasn't the best orgasm I've had but I had a small one. You could even not enjoy having sex and still come, your body reacts to stimulation and if it's in the right way or it's just too repetitive it can stimulate something down below. It may have not been fun and you still may be a little unsatisfied but you are still able to orgasm from a shit time in-between the sheets.     


   Don't let anyone ever tell you 'sex is sex' or to 'get over it' if you had a bad time getting laid. Sex isn't just sex! It is a sexual exploration between two people that should be enjoyable for everyone involved. Should you hang on to that bad experience forever? Not really; keep it in mind but don't let it ruin your sex drive. You also need to know that someone could be insanely attractive, or super hung, or that you can have an orgasm and the sex can still be one of the worst times you've ever had. Now, go forth my KooKooBabes go enjoy your life experience good/bad sex and realize the signs so in the end you end up happy, because it is all about you!

XXX ILY TIMES A MILLION, NIKKIESHARPIE! XXX 






Wednesday, August 6, 2014

Tips for The Incoming Freshmen!

Hello KooKooBabes!

    Today I will be sharing some first semester college freshman tips. If I had these tips and actually applied them, I actually wouldn't be posting this because I wouldn't have learned from my mistakes. Hey, I made the mistakes and now you don't have to repeat and stress over it, below are 5 tips I thought would be most helpful for you!

1. GO TO CLASS!!!
   This is my most important tip that I will ever continue to preach. I had this trouble my first semester and I didn't even have an 8am like I did second semester! I know, I don't get me either. Anyway going to class is super important I know everyone says it but it is 100% true. Some professors will even count attendance as a grade. A few of my professors had this set up for us; if you miss two or more classes you go down a letter grade. An entire letter grade! Thats going from an A to a B, or if it's a class you don't do well in from a passing grade to a failing one. In all seriousness some professors don't care if you go to class or not but you should care about it, you're the one paying all the money to go to school, you're working toward your dream job, you're the one who's name is on the report card. Just go to damn class ok!

2. Your syllabus should be your BFF!
   My second semester was my redemption semester and when I went to class on that monday morning I had no idea what a syllabus actually was. I had no idea it had my assignments and due dates in it! It was awesome! Seriously become best friends with your syllabus, take all the dates and put it in your agenda or phone, whatever just seriously look at that thing!

3. If you get a bad grade....relax!
   Alright so you totally spaced on that test in your 10am and got a D...don't freak out! I am so guilty of doing this; I will freak out cry and beg for a redo. Most of the times the professor will say no and thats actually 100% ok because it is their class and they do make the rules. Don't worry you can make it up, some professors will drop the lowest grade, there might be extra credit in the future. Either way do not let this kill your spirit one bad grade can seriously mess you up but if you realize you made a mistake and you realize you have a bunch of other chances before finals time you will be fine.

4. Party all you want...Seriously!! Just get up the next day.
   Congrats! Your Victoria Secrets plunge pushup bra and that twenty you slipped under your ID got you into the hot thursday night club. You got your cup with free all night refills and danced with your favorite girlfriends and hey even that cute guy in your Econ class! Oh, and great he even invited you back to his room for a sleep over once you get back to campus...at 2AM. Go for it, no seriously slip on your cute PJ's and spoon the rest of the night. As long as you're willing to wake up the next morning and go to your 9am. I had the problem of waking up either too late-even if I had an alarm-or waking up with enough time to do my walk of shame back to my own bed and instead of getting ready for class I would just sleep. DO NOT DO THIS! If you want to go out and have a good time do it but just be sure you can get up the next morning and go to class or just party on a weekend.

5. Make sure you know you messed up. 
   You've read all these tips and totally ignored all of them. Well, you just wasted your time and also granted yourself a spot on academic prohibition. You have a semester to turn that 1.7GPA to a 3.8GPA in order to maintain your scholarship. Make sure you are the one to know that you messed up, it sounds weird and doesn't make much sense but I will explain. From my experience, I first had to first make myself realize that I messed up, that I could loose everything if I didn't turn it around and fix it. The second I deep down realized that I fucked up I could turn it around. I would go to every class, do every assignment and pass every test I was handed.

   These might help you and they might not, if I had known these tips and actually known people who went though these mistakes I may not have made the same ones. I hope it helped you and I hope all of you have an amazing first year!

XXX ILY times a Milli, NikkieSharpie XXX

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

God doesn't want us to Fail!

Hello KooKooBabes!

   In church the other day my priest-Father Joe-said several things that really opened up my eyes and really made me think. He basically said that God doesn't want us to fail, he doesn't enjoy it, he doesn't want to give us constant judgement. Which is true, God wants us to enjoy life and do things we want too and if it is a sin he will then judge us and eventually forgive us. Father Joe admitted to having sinned and we in the seats also agreed to committing sins. He then went onto say that God is aware we have sinned but he is willing to forgive and forget it, he doesn't enjoy giving punishment he enjoys giving acceptance, so why do we still continue to hold grudges?
   I will be honest when I say I am a stubborn Italian-New York female, so I tend to hold grudges for a very long time. I tend to remember those who wronged me in the past and occasionally bring it up when they start to stray toward the path of wrong doing. Except as I grow older and seek guidance from others, including my church, I started to realize that I don't that part of me at all. Not the holding a grudge-that is a talent I'm mastered-the whole bringing it back up. I hate when people bring up my flaws or things I did in the past, so why should I continue to do it to others? I don't want to see anyone I know to fail and if I keep bringing it up that could potentially make them do so.
   We all should learn to forgive and move on-I'm not saying forget because memory is strongest of all-so we can all grow. If God doesn't want us to fail why do we want to see our friends and family fail, why don't we want to forgive and accept them with open arms like God will do for those he forgave once they passed on? We need less anger and spite and we need to accept that we are all flawed and we are all willing to move past them.

XXX ILY Times a Million, NikkieSharpie! XXX

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

Moment Made for Movies 1.

Hello KooKooBabes!

   I was recently talking to a friend of mine and was telling her about things that happened to me during school. After the third story she turned to me and told you "You have a lot of movie moments" and I decided to share them. When she said movie moments she meant things that you would usually only see in a silly little Rom-Com or a hipster independent film. You know, like going on a date where dolphins jump when you have your first kiss(which hasn't happened to me...yet!) or your boyfriend getting you the apartment you've always wanted like Big in Sex and the City the Movie. Nothing like that has happened to me but I do have some stories I want to share with you.
   Over thanksgiving break I decided not to go home to the freezing cold state of New York, partly because of the weather and partly because my mom never really celebrates thanksgiving. I didn't see a point, so I just stayed on campus with all the other loners. I didn't really venture out of my dorm except to go shopping here and there and get food from the caf, other then that I was in bed with Gossip Girl all week. On the night before thanksgiving all through the campus not as many as usual were stirring, honey it's Boca, there is no mouse. I ventured out of my room to grab dinner before overdosing on the great love of Chuck and Blair for the rest of my night. As I entered the caf a friend of mine approached me asking me if I had a car, my friend left me hers so yes, for the time being I did have a car. He asked me to take him to the liquor store, harmless request to go down the street so after much begging on his part-I always was going to say yes he didn't need to beg, it was just fun to watch-I agreed and off we went. In the car I asked him why he wanted to drink tonight hoping maybe there was some kind of party, he shook his head and responded "I'm a writer, I like to drink while I write it really helps me" how Hemingway of him.
   He went and got his liquor and we drove back to campus before we parted ways he asked me if I would like to join him. Lets weight my options; spending an evening in my bed watching gossip girl until early hours of morning, OR sitting in a cute boys room while he takes shots and writes a novel. I chose gossip girl. He understood and off we went...then an hour later her texted me asking me what I was doing and if I would "please come over" and "stay with" him while he wrote I put up a slight fight then he asked if he could come to my room. I didn't have to move, he would sit there and write and I could do what I want, I wrote back "Ok". He came over five minutes later and went to work and I went onto the next drama filled episode. After a while of him taking shots and typing furiously he asked me to drink I declined "Why not?" he asked coming toward me iPad in hand I shrugged
"I don't know not really in the mood too" I responded he smiled placing the iPad in front of me
"How about this; you read what I have written and if you like it you drink, if you don't I wont bother you about it again" I didn't have any arguments so I read what he was working on and it was actually very beautiful. I ended up getting drunk very quickly. We were taking shots and talking, taking shots and laughing, taking shots and...wait for it...watching the Disney classic Hercules...while he sang along! I was melting, he was adorable! I had never really gotten to know him before that night and it was only getting better. Somehow we ended up looking at pictures on my phone when he came across a picture of my sister and I. For my entire school career everyone would say the same thing "You're pretty, but you're sister is prettier" which wasn't really true shes just thinner then me and her boobs came in before mine. This time he studied the photo "This is your sister?" he asked I rolled my eyes and nodded, excepting the same response I always got. Instead, he nodded and casually said "hmm, you're hotter" handing me back my phone. I turned bright red and laughed awkwardly thanking him, that was a shock "Well you are!" he stated taking a shot and I grabbed the bottle from his and took one myself, no one ever told me that I needed booze to be able to handle it.
   As the night went on the conversation got better and finally were getting to the movie moments you have all been waiting for. He looked out the window with a smile "lets go somewhere" he said I groaned
"Come on it's late and it's comfortable in my bed" I whined as he grabbed my arm trying to move us off my bed "Trust me this place is awesome!" he insisted pulling me again this time I pulled back
"Nooooooo" I cried as we got into a pulling war finally I grabbed him around the waist "I don't wanna!" I said in a joking tone, he laughed and soon pulling and grabbing each other turned into a full out tickle fest, I screaming and giggling as he tried his hardest to convince me to leave my room. He had his arms around me as I was on my back struggling for air when he stopped, pushed my hair back, looked me in the eyes and said "You are really beautiful Nikkie" and smiled. I got extremely embarrassed rolling my eyes and telling him to stop "No, you are though" he said his eyes still fixed on mine. I needed to get this conversation off of me so I went for his sides heading right back into our tickle fight. It went on for a little more the once again, while still on top of me torturing me with fast moving fingers that made me laugh, he stopped and in a flash his lips were on top of mine and he was kissing me. When our lips finally parted I looked up at him and asked "Why did you do that?" with a stupid smiled stuck onto my face, he had matching smile as he shrugged lowering himself back toward me and said "I don't know". This is the part in the move where the camera pans over to the half empty bottle of vodka and Hercules paused onto the television then the scene goes dark.
   When you finally reenter the scene the two "friends" are cuddled up in bed, him without a shirt and her with the covers covering her upper half may or may not be wearing clothes. We didn't feel awkward about it at all we were actually both pretty happy something about being drunk and friends and the whole experience in general. Oh and to make it even better after he took me to a "secrete place" that I promised I would never tell anyone where it was and we...wait for it...looked at the stars together! After that we didn't really talk much and we never had another night like that again and in a way, I don't mind. He was exactly what I needed at that time in my life.

Even regular everyday girls get moments that are made for the movies!

XXX ILY Times a Million, NikkieSharpie! XXX